What the hell are you doing?

Uhh..nothing?

psst...wrong answer...

wha...?

Shut the fuck op Dresden. She needs this

Great, what speech am I getting this time?

guys?

Shut up Bleue

What's going on, Shangri?

When the fuck are going to do anything? When was the last time you even wrote something worth reading?

...The day Michael Jackson died?

I meant other than a memorial. And seriously, what's with all the moping around? If you're so fucking unhappy, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!

I'd feel bad for ya kid...but..well..ya know..

Dresden...please, just stop. Shangri...It's summer time..I ALWAYS get like this in the summer. And fuck you! No one reads what I write anymore. Where were you when they stopped? Looking the other wat like always.

She has a point, Shangri...And she did pick SOMETHING back up..

So she picked her Craft back up, this doesn't concern you, boy.

Actually..it kinda does...

BOTH OF YOU! KNOCK IT OFF! FUCK! I HAVE NO PEACE ANYMORE!

O.O

Did you know she was snapping again?

Not really. I guess I should have seen it....

You guys always miss everything.

Cassie? What the...where did you...oh fuck

Why are you all acting like I'm as bad as Sylvie?

Sorry...didn't expect you.

That's ok.

Not to be rude, Cassie, but we're in the middle of something...

So?

I think this means you have to stay out of it like me.

But I hate you, Bleue. We ALL do.

Cassie...go play or something....

Fine....But I'm not happy about this.

we know

I think it's time to stop this....

I agree...Shangri..save it for the Fall or Winter...

This is so not done with....

For now..it is...



Arguing with myself again. Trying to figure out if that spinning needle is ever going to stop and tell me which way to go. I feel like crying...I feel sad and a little kicked around. Summer time does this to me. Even when I'm with Alisa, I still feel empty. I've always hated the summer. The long days, the heat and all that sun. I miss the Fall and the Winter. The long nights, the frigid, bitter air...I love the way it burns in my lungs with each breath. I feel more alive then. Death has a way of calming me, well, the proverbial death of the earth. The death of the God before he is reborn by the Mother Goddess. The lazy nights where the stars are cold jewels in a cover of black ice. I love the way the frost glimmers.

I've been going through some of my old posts on here and there was one that really stuck out to me...it said to ask for simple things, like a cookie or a tv. When was the last time any of us just sat down to appreciate the smallest details in our lives? Like the day Davey and I decided to have a silly string fight in the front yard, that was father's day. Like the night Alisa and I went to McD's to get snack wraps and got a free oreo Mcflurrie. Like Karin and I sitting there for hours doing nothing but playing FFX. Like Lynny and I watching anime in Japanese because the characters sound cuter. Like Ellie and I giggling about cat boys. Like Emily and I repeating the same inside joke over and over agian because it never fails to make us smile. Or Alisa and I screaming at eachother to "LOVE ME!!!" or how Karin can get me out of my dark hole and into the sunlight. or how I still give a damn about what happens to Lynny even she forgets how close we were. or how Ellie and I can be so different and yet, I can always make her feel special, because to me she is. or how Emily is my kid in every way that matter to me. Like Chelsea mom is our mom. Yeah, we may have all grown apart in some ways, but there is still that love. That residue that clings to the fibers of who we are today. The remenants of all the people, all the experiences, that helped shape us.

I guess what I'm trying to say is look back and smile. Appreciate what you had, what you have, and what there is to come. All we have is today because yesterday is a memory and tomorrow doesn't exsist yet.



Later Loves,

Sierria